Well, once Tian woke up, she was still not too happy to be with us, but we opened up the cookie pack she had been clinging to (the orphanage workers had given it to her, and she held onto it for dear life)and started to munch on those. Soon though, Bo worked his charm! He had gotten a couple quick giggles out of her at the Civil Affairs Office, but they quickly faded, but now, back at the room, he got her full out laughing and smiling that first night. She is okay with me holding her, but she doesn’t want to look me in the face. Women are probably all she’s ever known, and I sure don’t look like any of the women she is used to! We played with the stacking cups, looked at photos, played ball, looked out the window (in the insane traffic below our hotel window, a man on a bike got hit~Yikes!)
Tian got upset when I tried to put her in the crib, and it being her first night, I sure didn’t have the heart to just put her down, so we laid down on the bed together. After she fell asleep, I put her in her crib. She woke up, and started to fuss, so I just sat down beside it and rubbed her arm and her face. After a while, she pushed my arm away, so I just sat and watched her. She kept opening her eyes and looking, as if to see if I were still there. She fell asleep just a few minutes later.
Tian slept beautifully, and I got a great night’s rest, as well, for the first time in I don’t know how long. I did wake up at 4 with a poem (or whatever you want to call it) in my head that just wouldn’t leave me alone, so I finally got up and wrote it out. (Believe me, I’m no writer! Bo is the author…but sometimes I have words that won’t quit running through my head till they get put down on paper.) If you promise not to critique, I’ll share it.
For today, I am sorry.
That we don’t look like the beautiful faces you know so well.
That we don’t know everything that has brought a smile to your sweet face up until now.
That we don’t speak with a lovely voice that sounds like music.
But tomorrow, and the rest of your life, I rejoice.
Because we will be the faces that light up with a smile whenever we see you, and look on you with pride as you learn and grow into the girl, the woman you are destined to become.
Because we will come to know you, and you will know us. We will discover what makes you smile and laugh, and you are now part of a family that is full of happiness.
Because we will be the voices that tell you each day how precious you are, how you were known by God before the foundation of the earth, and that He knew, in His divine providence, that although the circumstances that led you to us would be hard, they would also bring Him glory.
So I rejoice.